I have had more time at home than usual recently. I stayed away from work three days last week. Tuesday was planned but Wednesday I used gardening for an excuse. I did garden, but really, I felt like I couldn’t face work that morning. Friday I waited for the air conditioning technician and then stayed home after he left.
I have felt like a woman out of place, lost, without a touchstone lately. The culmination, I assume , of two very hard years at work where life lessons have been beaten into me without much mercy. On Friday evening i felt that if only I trusted my intuition and the essential goodness of the universe, I would be fine. I would be walking a slightly altered path, but it would be my path and i would be fine. I found this quote by Martha Graham that I found both uplifting and reassuring.
“There is a vitality, a life force, a quickening that is translated through you into action, and because there is only one of you in all time, this expression is unique. And if you block it, it will never exist through any other medium and will be lost. The world will not have it.
It is not your business to determine how good it is, nor how
valuable it is, nor how it compares with other expressions.
It is your business to keep it yours, clearly and directly,
to keep the channel open.”
